Sunday, December 27, 2009
kAreN from URL @ 4:26 PM
Hello people.. I was just as bored staying at home, I got literally nothing to write, but since I'm soooooo free (actually got pending stuff) hahah, I shall write something. I've been stuck onto youtube and the net since yday. I think i almost burnt my laptop for on-ing it for 13 hours straight. Today no doubt it'd be the same too. HAHA.
There is a distinctive difference people in NAF and IgC. Hmm, I don't know, but certain instructions do not seem quite gotten across correctly. I've got to say NAF is where all the high achievers are. Some perfectionist. I used to consider myself one, but not now, as have already lost the drive and habit. It may be good, it may be bad. Haha.
Youtube is just as addictive as anything else. Initially youtube seems to be some boring website to me since it has got nothing that interest me. But i was sooooo wrong, hahah I guess its because I got no interest in anything yet. But right now, with the crazy obsession with jayesslee that eat up alot of my time, and the interest and curiousity of australian arises, I think i'm pretty hooked to the internet. HAHA. I almost want to plan for australia trip, though I think its highly impossible. HAHA and if I wanna go australia, I wan to know how the life of people there. etcetc. So ideal scenario would be going for about a week or 2 with accomodation settled by our friend rachel there. Or, go there for exchange programs!! Let my fervent craze of aussie increase please. Let me be all crazy over going aus for exchange, then it gives me a reason to study hard for good gpa, and earn more money to go aussie!!!
You know after today, after today which is sunday, I'll have the next week fully pack (if hiking is cfm)! I'll be out of the house at least 12 hours per day. From monday to sunday ya, all with activities lining up. I mean this is really awesome but lets hope i got the energy and strength and discipline to maintain. This is when, 1159 must get onto bed rule must apply!!
On the urge of wanting to get more money, it comes bundled with the fear of unable to cope and the wants of learning new courses. Its like a package, it all comes together. lol
The time for the period to reflect on the year 2009 has come, and the time to set some resolutions for the year 2010 is here too. Ahhh lets se what resolutions I typed one year ago and did I ever met them? lol
*after 10 minutes of searching*
I think I didnt write any, or yes I did, but not as blog entry but its on the blog template.
HAHA. wells. forget it.
Most memorable incidents in 2009 (not in any order)
1) Yaowen wedding @ Meritus Mandarin
2) SBS FOC
3) Work and tuitions.
4) A level results release
5) Getting offered a place in NTU
6) And all blur memories of girlfriends hanging out
7) and 4 bdae cakes for my bdae this yr.
The year of 2009 has past with blurry images, and not so much of any super fond memories.
Partly was working too much. Be it holidays or school term. SO thats why, yea life has been pretty dull and boring. I had played all the while on my yr one sem one, thinking of results release in 3 days time, its horrifying. Though I'm prepared for utmost badest results, but I prob couldnt accept the fact. Yet, I think the trauma will be over in just a few day's time. And my same old bad habit will be back. Hmm, and this viscious cycle continues. So, it is the bad habit that I got to break my dear.
In order to allow for more room and space to focus on my studying, I've decided to
1) Pack my table, pencil case, files and stuff to prepare myself for the start of the school term
2) Not to take up anymore tuitions. Initially thinking that I can squeeze one in my weekend, but, now, my weekends are taken up already.
3) Keep only the job in NTU lib and work max 10 hours for it, though I had no idea how to cope.
4) Reorganise my laptop, so that I will have the mood to start work/studying and lab reports once sch term starts.
Karen has accepted the fact that, by hook or by crook, she's gonna be in NTU SBS. there's no changing and no turning around anymore and thus she has stopped thinking of any other alternatives and decides to focus on what she's and she'll be going to do from now onwards. Its going to be tough with lots of memory needed for bio stuff. but, she will make it somehow. And on the same time, balancing on all she has got on her hands for example CCAs. She hasn't regret taking up whatever she has took up and in fact, she enjoys doing CCA work more than school stuff. And will ocntinue doing it. NAF is gonna end in about 3-4 months time, and then what's left will be the FOC. On the other note, money shouldnt be one of her major concern. So, she has decided to only work in NTU lib just for her own food expenses. At least, leaving the night time free for studying and what she really wants to do.
So current plans for the next sem would be as described above.
Plans for next acad yr, I may be joining the WSC RSPyouth. Guitar ensemble. Probably this 2. HAHA. RSPyouth is out of my personal interest. Guitar is an awesome interest which is backed by some of my NAF mates who expressed interest in it too. Haha, so we sort of made a pact, to join guitar together. But I wonder how serious they took it? Haha.
As to whether I will continue with the next NAF, ahh, that's to be confirmed.
Resolutions for the year 2010 would be simple and ahievable (:
1) To take things slowly, experience the process and manage well all CCA stuff
2) Do well for studies.
3) Be self sufficient in terms of $$
That's all!
And hope my fervent craze for Aussie continues!!!!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
kAreN from URL @ 6:37 PM
Im starting to feel tired and nonchantlant about _______
It just didnt used to be the same anymore.
And its you who broke it apart. but you didnt realise it.
Im dreading it.
kAreN from URL @ 6:16 PM
okie dokie. I'll write something since twitter is seriously not working at all at the moment!!
Been a long long day and a really busy one!!.
Okays, so yday after hanging out till 11 then reach home, i tried to rush some work and send some really important emails out to people!! Now I finally know why emails can be that important! Email doesnt used to be important at all in the past!! Emails are just for forwarding stupid stuff like spams and jokes. or just to send some serious stuff like attached documents for school work wise!
And now, I got lots of impt emails. you know, those that you die die must send by today one cos the datelines are damn near and if you don send soon the consequences are horrendously great alrights!! Okay I'm abit exxagerating.. but given the fact that I'm working full time in the day makes me have lesser time to send emails!.
But lesser time doesnt mean no time!!. Its all in the mind, there's no such thing called no time, but there's this thing called no discipline. HAHA.
Alrights. So today during work, before lunch it was still alright, I managed to finish 1 trolley of books. boohooooooo.
it is when until lunch.!! damnnnnn. Msn emails sms and phone calls. Made like quite a few of them. Couldnt get everything settled within 1 hr of my extended lunch break, so was kind of sneaking out of the office making phone calls like 5/6 times, duno how long I took also.
But... its awesome(: It beats hands down compared to rotting at home, or staring straight in the com wasting time for hours....
and uh huh, there's 3 different types of emails from 3 diff organisations/groups I got to send. Wells.. (: Love it totally. give me more workkKKK!!!!!!!!
meeting auntie later at pioneer station pass her something, so nuaing in library for awhile now. Lib closing soon! then home sweet home.
and oh ya, I haven bought any christmas pressie yet! :(
huiwen's one is handmade so hers is totally free!! boohoo.
Tmr work half day also... $$$$ come to me ((=
kAreN from URL @ 1:29 AM
Okay new chop chop post!
Hmm. today NAF meeting, turn up rate kind of little. and anw, the cohesion is kind of cui. ahhh wells. Alot of things other people did, if it was me I could have done it better. But, but, but, i decided not to interfere and didnt see my point in doing so.
so chilled and htht with some of the NAF people till 10 plus!!
other then normal bgr stuff, we talked about how NAF is breaking into 2 groups of people. you know, one group being us, the other group being ppl like lynette's character. aww sighs. it is apparent and everybody sees it that the bonding is just not there. but am quite glad got some 'friends' there now!
I just got a feeling that wanling will be peiting. fk that.
all this arises, because they were all too awesome.
I just read a book on how introverts can be viewed as being aloof or unfriendly. but wells. heck and see how things go.
I don wan history repeat itself.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
kAreN from URL @ 11:18 PM
Supposed to type out my proposal now fast fast and get a good night's sleep cos tmr's gonna be a long long day! but i just had to type something here.
Today was awesome. Car washing with the IgC people. Not really car wash lol we only washed one car but collected about 100bucks. within 1.5hrs that is. HAHA, so there were other groups, so total i heard it was close to 300 for just within 1.5hrs. Hmm. Rich people just donate. (:
Then ate Mos, learned how to do some bear bear thing which I totally had no talent in it =.= Cant get a bloody straight line out. boohoo.
hahha later met up with huiwen and jean we went kino i wanna find organisers but couldnt get a good one. head over to ps. and got one organiser and one cash flow book all just for 7.90!
then we went ASTON's for dinner. not bad for my 6.90 chicken. hahah. waited quite awhile and bus back home (:
Thats all. Work tmr siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. alrights back to proposal now.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
kAreN from URL @ 9:48 PM
I'll blog a little while i wait for my photos to be uploaded to facebook.
Internet connection is really slow cos my bro's watching vids while I'm dling something!! boooo.
Alrights, today a small meetup with one of our relatives and my maternal grandma to celebrate her birthday. So we dined at laobeijing, from tung lok group. HAHA. Its quite awesome. Though the choices ain't really alot, but the dimsum and some snacks are really of good quality. Service is quite okay cos we were the slightly big group dining there. Comes with free flow drinks. Best of all, it only cost $15.90, cos its tea time buffet. Awesome rights. Haha.
Wells, it always kind of wake me up from my subconscious mode when I met someone after a long long time.. They'd age so much, or grow up so much, it kind of bring me back to reality, that the world keeps on revolving and time doesnt stops at all.
Although its not that long ago, about 10 months ago during cny I saw my grandma. But this time round, she looked so much more smaller. Guess growing old makes you look smaller. Hmm.
Sometimes I really wonder.. When one grows old, what do they really want? Today is Grandma's bdae, prob all she wants, and all she has is her family and relatives with her. Friends yes, but maybe kind of hi bye aunties and ah mas in the market? What party what decorations what cake and stuff they are all bullshit. When one has walked all the paths of a life, they've reached the basics of the basic, and learnt what is really important to them.
Yeah, so after the super heavy meal. We went to bata to shop. Guess the privilege of coming from a poor family is that you get vouchers, 100 plus dollars vouchers. So bro and sis bought 3 pairs of shoes for about 75bucks *for free*. There's NTUC and Popular vouchers also. Awesome luh. I bought about 3 pens like finally since its free.
uh huh, so i was tasked with the responsibility of bringing my grandmomo back to mrt station cos she wanna go home early to watch 'Ai' lololol. Well, on the route to mrt, we kind of like no topics to talk about, so remained silent throughout the way. momo says grandmomo old alr abit blur so must take care of her esp during escalators. well i did that and I see she don really have any problems with that. It was only until nearing the station, she asked whether if I got go home everyday after school. I was like huh? Of cos I did, lol isnt everybody supposed to do that? Or was she referring to staying to hostel? did she even know the existence of halls? Or was she just asking whether I'm guai anot, nv run away from home or anything. Haha. But of cos I din say out, I just said yes. Then she said something like.. 'guai...' LOL.
I asked her if she knows which train to take back anot, she said yes.
PS: It kind of amazed me when elderly like my ah gong and this ah ma knows how to take train to where they wanna go. Its like they don even understand english.. Awesome rights.
I asked a few more times just to double and triple check that she really knows.
But thinking back that she took train here by herself means she more or less knows the way yea.
She just said that she's just old, she cant see things clearly..
Before she left she kind of said, 'yao yong gong du shu ah' means must study hard..
Then we bid goodbye.
I dunno why but tears started welling up in my eyes. I just felt like crying. Maybe I really hate goodbyes. Guess I was too emotional or having pms or some hormonal imbalance thingy.
I stayed and watched her go down the escalator until she disappears from my view.
Before that when she was far far away, She turned back and waved to me.
Hey guys.. Think about it, who are really the ones that you will still turn back and wave goodbye when you're like far far away?? Be it friends or be it parents, when we say goodbye, some cant wait to rush off, some don even bother to say goodbye to parents, most don turn back...
I really really wonder... if she can really see me from the distance that far away.
I dont know why, I really really dunno why tears just kept flowing...
Seriously, there's much more meaningful stuff to do other than just to work my life out earning money for unrealistic stuff., there's much more meaningful stuff to do other than just spending hours waiting for something, spending time aimlessly walking around shopping centre looking at stuff that never stops changing.
You know, sometimes parents will rake up the past, talking about how bad their parents, ie, our grandparents, have been to them. and when I mean bad, Its really bad.
But how should our generations treat them? They've never been bad to us, neither have they really do us harm in any way. Sometimes I would ponder, if I treat them nice, maybe they don deserve that nice treatment since they were so bad creatures in the past. But, today, I got the answer to my doubts. I know that we should treat them nice no matter how bad they have been in the past. Since all is already the past, and they're so nice to us as grandchildren now, there is no reasons why we should not treat them nicely.
People have only one live, some may treat it as a game, some may not. But the hardcore fact right in front of us is that, once they're dead, they can no longer be alive. All of us know that elderly are the ones nearing their ends of lives. by assuming that there's no accidents or sudden deaths of the other ages.
It is always hard taking the first step but i'll try!
Its such a blessing to still have your grandparents with you now.
ps: the world's full of fakes or things that are not true. However, things that are true will always remain true to you. Just don't take too long to realise that they are true.
ps: i just did something o.o
kAreN from URL @ 11:21 AM
woah just read kaykay's tweets. omg f awesome!
Hotels with masks and radion 95 fm on in the night is just... awesomely awesome. and its free cos she got shoots in the next morning.
kAreN from URL @ 12:02 AM
OMG I really have to say this:
AVATAR IS AWESOME!
At first I was turned off by the ugly alien and unrealistic alien looks of the creatures. But since my friends wanted to watch, so i just tagged along. HAHA it is yet another sci fic movie. awesome. Biological terms used. LOL. It is an action pact movie. but take away from that movie: I wanna be as awesome as the biologist scientist!!!
Then had dinner cum bdae celebration at the fish & co Glasshouse. It's awesome too cos there was this live band. Not band but its duet with guitars and stuff. The workers there celebrated the customer's birthday by cheering and cheering and singing aloud bdae songs while the birthday girl/guy will stand in the middle holding sparkles. Awesome right!! HAHA
Alright, I din buy my BOOOOOST :( because, was coughing cannot take cold drinks! hmm.
On the other note:
Its quite sad when I put NAF in my first priority but my heads are too responsible that I had nothing much to do.
Its quite sad too, when I put IgC at my 3rd priority, which is the least, but it requires so much commitment!! Lots and lots of canvassing stuff.
SOmehow, I just felt that NAF is not doing enough. Or is it just me that's feeling too freeeeee.
Friday, December 18, 2009
kAreN from URL @ 9:06 AM
the 777th post.
There has always an issue about money, about what I wanna do in the future.
hmm, so good gracious, i skipped ntu lib work today. Felt damn f up. Feeling sick also. No point going there and cough my lungs out when the whole office is damn quiet.
What I wanna do in the future?
I know that office work really turns me off. But lots of work includes office work.
Why don I quit lib work?
but..
1) the pay is good
2) the hours are good
3) I've know things there already
Why don I wanna stay on
1) Staring at the com with a blur screen hurts my eyes BIG TIME
2) Its freaking quiet, I can't stand facing the com sitting down for straight few hours, its just not me.
3) The work is never ending, looking at the piles of books, I just felt like dying.
But hey man, I need money. Why don't I go look for a job as a waitress?
But, it pays only 5 per hr. lib offers me 8/hr.
furthermore, lib can offer me to work during the hols. full time, that i needn't go find work outside yea. and work outside, mostly it'd be office work, isnt it better to work at a location you're familiar with?
I'm in so a love-hate relationship with work.
and that makes me think of the work that I wanna do in the future.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
kAreN from URL @ 10:35 PM
You know.. I still remember vividly, that time when zen was asking me to move out to live by myself and get away from my parents.
That time I thought he were just making a fuss.
Now, when another person, an adult with a certain profession, also states so.. I'm starting to have second thoughts.
and maybe, I should heed her advice, to give up studying and work first.
Blessing of the day: Memories (:
kAreN from URL @ 4:35 PM
Hmm, so sick i am, missed CAC meeting today. bad headache, coughing and flu. I'm thinking of whether to skip work tmr. omg.
ah wells. There has always been this issue of taking care of myself. It seems easy, but I never ever had done so. Making sure that I had all 3 meals a day is already a chore. Wasnt eating supposed to be fed upon? Now that no parents are at home, sometimes I don eat at all. which is very bad.
The other issue was that, having enough sleep. I should know that I am different from others. I had work commitments and stuff. Sleeping early is always a must.
Long conditions and exposure to unhealthy and taxing daily lifestyle has made me susceptible to virus infection easily. I get by everyday easily. But once, I had a very heaty day, or sleepless night, I'll fall sick immediately.
Its time to watch my diet and physical activity.
It hurts my eye to keep staring at the com. But I had to look through the next yr's modules and electives stuff. wells I almost fainted when I saw next yr modules. all bio! =.= Its time to buck up.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
kAreN from URL @ 11:29 PM
Hmm, today's work at library was awfully boring!! uhhhhh. time pass super slowly... and I managed to finish 2 trolley! awesome!
apart from that, today's meeting was awesome! haha. first meet up with the foc ppl. i think everyone in the group belongs to the dull group, but... the leader is FUNNAE!!! omg, we laughed until (*&*&(. I think I got six packs after the meeting cos my stomach muscles just gek too much from the laughing. LOL. Just laughed non stop. You know, awesome people are still around (:
Blessing count for today: It's awesome to be able to feel (:
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